a question

Often times I would get lost and ask myself,

 what am I doing in this world.

When everything seems to be failing,

what is my real purpose?

Hiding Place

You are my hiding place

You always fill my heart 

With songs of deliverance

Whenever I am afraid

I will trust in you

I will trust in you

Let the weak say I am strong

In the strength of the Lord

Lord, give me strength.

The world did not stop.

It's been 12 days since typhoon YUTU took away the home we lived in. Yutu was horrifying, leaving massive dustruction to the island where I am at. But what's unforgetable is the experience of losing the home that I built with my wife and her 2kids. After two days of picking up things that i can salvage from the collapsed house, it started to sink in. There goes my house. The simple-yet-bountiful life that i bragged is now pieces of broken woods and folded tin sheets. I felt like, YUTU didn't just take away my home, but the life i tried to build. We were ok, we had plans. Our financials is gonna take us to our goal. But just like that. Poof. Everything is gone. It's been 12 days, I haven't picked up the pieces. I am stucked. Screaming for normalcy like the rest of the people in the island. It's been 12 days, but the world did not stop. I was expecting it to stop, until we can recover.  It didn't. Life goes on. I am still stucked with the memories of the home. Crying inside to once again feel the peace. 12 days, I haven't started to recover. I feel pain. I feel tired.

idk

I love her so. But I do not know how not to hurt her.

Mine Forever

The most beautiful bride I've ever seen!

12.10.16

8.23.16

**I had this for my b-day. Didn't get the chance to post it on FB. I found it safer not to. But yeah, here it is.**

I couldn’t thank God enough for the wonderful year. It was not a perfect one, but definitely is as one of the best. I got to meet new friends. Got reunited with old, old friends from the other side of the world. Strike a couple of things from my bucket list.  I was showered with blessings, that helped me accomplished my dreams of travelling more without having to leave a burden of debts after. Passing a couple of storm was damn tough. I guess losing a part of you is to gain from it. It starts to get uncommon but the contemporary is limitless. Still more is to announce my engagement with Rio. The only person, who believed in me and stayed proud of me. Who saw my flaws but sticked with me, who accepted everything that I am without a single question, who never doubted my past, the one who loved all that I love despite imperfections. She does not tolerate me but she loved me wholeheartedly. And especially, to have friends, who disagree and agree, who are crazy and fun, and who accepted my being and supported my identity. Although the year has to complete its ingredients with pain and disappointments, I chose stay on the safe side and guard myself from scars. I am grateful for another year. A chance to be a better me. I pray for forgiveness and healing, and I pray for guidance. I pray strength for those who are struggling in the middle of crisis, whether financial or emotional. I thank God for the lessons. Today, this year, the best of the best is yet to come….