Lord, give me strength.

The world did not stop.

It's been 12 days since typhoon YUTU took away the home we lived in. Yutu was horrifying, leaving massive dustruction to the island where I am at. But what's unforgetable is the experience of losing the home that I built with my wife and her 2kids. After two days of picking up things that i can salvage from the collapsed house, it started to sink in. There goes my house. The simple-yet-bountiful life that i bragged is now pieces of broken woods and folded tin sheets. I felt like, YUTU didn't just take away my home, but the life i tried to build. We were ok, we had plans. Our financials is gonna take us to our goal. But just like that. Poof. Everything is gone. It's been 12 days, I haven't picked up the pieces. I am stucked. Screaming for normalcy like the rest of the people in the island. It's been 12 days, but the world did not stop. I was expecting it to stop, until we can recover.  It didn't. Life goes on. I am still stucked with the memories of the home. Crying inside to once again feel the peace. 12 days, I haven't started to recover. I feel pain. I feel tired.

idk

I love her so. But I do not know how not to hurt her.

Mine Forever

The most beautiful bride I've ever seen!

12.10.16

8.23.16

**I had this for my b-day. Didn't get the chance to post it on FB. I found it safer not to. But yeah, here it is.**

I couldn’t thank God enough for the wonderful year. It was not a perfect one, but definitely is as one of the best. I got to meet new friends. Got reunited with old, old friends from the other side of the world. Strike a couple of things from my bucket list.  I was showered with blessings, that helped me accomplished my dreams of travelling more without having to leave a burden of debts after. Passing a couple of storm was damn tough. I guess losing a part of you is to gain from it. It starts to get uncommon but the contemporary is limitless. Still more is to announce my engagement with Rio. The only person, who believed in me and stayed proud of me. Who saw my flaws but sticked with me, who accepted everything that I am without a single question, who never doubted my past, the one who loved all that I love despite imperfections. She does not tolerate me but she loved me wholeheartedly. And especially, to have friends, who disagree and agree, who are crazy and fun, and who accepted my being and supported my identity. Although the year has to complete its ingredients with pain and disappointments, I chose stay on the safe side and guard myself from scars. I am grateful for another year. A chance to be a better me. I pray for forgiveness and healing, and I pray for guidance. I pray strength for those who are struggling in the middle of crisis, whether financial or emotional. I thank God for the lessons. Today, this year, the best of the best is yet to come….

dear bro

dear lord,

imissedu. i have missed u. i have missed the persons in my heart.

as they call out my name for their needs lord, lemme remember one thing.

my promise to take care of them, no matter what. i forget that most of the times.

i was too busy surviving my current days. i was too busy dreaming of chasing my dreams.

i was too busy waiting for that moment, that i'd finally get up and do it.

but these people lord, are here now, waiting. i am sorry. im sorry for saying sorry

every year. im sorry for saying sorry everytime i miss them. i am sorry for eveything.

iloveu. and i love them, i do. fill my heart with more love. love that would be enough

to get me off my feet and do the things thati need to. thanku for your blessings.

thank you for taking care of my needs. i wanna take care of their needs, but i need u lord.

i need u. i pray to u. i leave it in ur hands. thanku for this moment. i thank every moment

i get close to u like this. i feel u. and i know u r holding my hands. thank u.

iloveu.

jhie

thank u for the joy that people bring into my life.

8 Months After

8 months ago. I found her. 

 I battled with my feelings for her and my fear.

But having her is just the most beautiful feeling.

And I can say...